To my little man:

To my little man:

     You are a rockstar!  I let you cry for an hour during the night without picking you up, it was so hard for me.  All I wanted to do was to come in and comfort you.  But in the morning, you still looked up at me with those big blue eyes and smiled.  You then let me drag you on a walk around the park where the birds were WAY too comfortable and got WAY too close to us.  And you let an older couple stop us for longer than I want to say, and you stayed pretty calm until the end.  You were hungry on the ride home and cried... and cried...and cried.  Because mom got lost, ended up in the Financial district, and it took us an hour to get home.  You cried for 50 minutes, and when you fell asleep for the last 10, I cried.    I tried to find a parking lot to pull into, but there was no such luck in the busy streets of San Francisco.  I felt horrible.  You then cried as I pulled you out of your carseat to take you inside.  I fed you, feeling like an awful mother for making you wait so long to eat. Your eyes got heavy, I thought you were asleep. But then the most amazing thing happened!!  You got the biggest grin on your face, milk was spilling from the side of your mouth, and you ever so softly started talking to me.  You were cooing in the most gentle voice, and looking up at me with love in your eyes.  It was just what I needed.  You taught me a valuable lesson today - one that I desperately needed to learn.  New moms make mistakes.  We are still learning, and trying our best.  When you cry, we cry.  But just as our love is unconditional for you, you have unconditional love for us too... even when we screw up.  Thank you for that my sweet little boy!  You knew just what your mama needed today and boy did you deliver.  I love you so much!  Thanks for choosing me to be your mother :)